The Birth of

Sometimes life has a way of making us realise that what we feel to be the worse thing that could happen to us, turns out to actually be the best…

At the beginning of 2006 I experienced something which completely turned my world upside down, taking away any faith I had left in humankind, and I feel I would like to share this in the hope that my experience will help somebody else. I found myself in a position where I either gave up completely, or clung to my faith of spiritual guides, fairies and angels. It was difficult….what had just happened was very real, but my spiritual guides were invisible…were they really there, or was I completely mad ? (and this wasn’t the first time that I had questioned my sanity!). I really struggled for a few weeks….the pain of all the deceit around me consumed me, and I just couldn’t feel where I was supposed to continue my journey, if at all I wanted to continue. I would awake every morning, just crying out to my angels to help me put one foot in front of the other, to guide me to where it was I was supposed to be going, and to help me understand `why`. Gradually the days got easier, and from somewhere I found the strength to pick myself up and start again. As time went on I began to learn that I hadn’t found the strength myself, and I wasn’t actually mad after all (contrary to public opinion!)….there really was an invisible force guiding me, and as long as I listened to my heart I would always `feel` the right path to take. The transition was an awesome experience…..I started to dismiss `logic` and allow the warmth in my heart to guide me. Absolutely nothing was concrete…..nobody spoke `words` to me, no human person took me for coffee to offer compassion and solutions; everything was concluded from the feelings in my heart, and that was so very different from the way I had lived before. It was difficult to begin with, scary even. I couldn’t explain to people why I was making the decisions I was making…my choices just `felt` right , but at times my head would be screaming at me otherwise, and sometimes I would need reassurance that following my heart was the right thing to do….(maybe I always will, at times). But I now look back on all those months of turmoil, and really can say `thank you` to all the deception, because without that experience I wouldn’t have the trust in the spiritual world that I have now. I always believed `they` were there, but that thought just stayed at the back of my mind, I never enlarged on it….of course I believed in angels, fairies and spirit, but I would spend hours on the phone to friends, looking for the answers that my spiritual guides would have given me within minutes, had I had the trust to ask. Now I have that trust… I just ask my `invisible` friends, and my heart gives me the answer. I now understand that `my heart knows`. Why ever do I need anything else?

`Heavenly Creations` has been born from that knowing. I have no idea where it is going, but already it has taught me so much, and brought so much beauty into my life…far more than I have ever experienced before. Beautiful people have entered my life, and each of these beautiful people have taught me something different …one in particular giving me far more than he would ever believe he could give, and teaching me more than I have ever hoped to learn….truly my earth angel.

All I can do now is say `thank you` to the beginning of 2006! I have encountered many painful experiences in my life, but this episode was one of the saddest….I really had no idea how I would live through it. I know that others must feel the same as I did, for their own reasons, and I pray that all the work I aim to do with Heavenly Creations will give people hope and comfort, and the strength to move forward, helping them to meet and know their guides, and work with them.

`Heavenly Creations` is dedicated to my amazingly courageous and inspirational friend Mikey, who left this earth in September 2002. Our love for one another continues, stronger than ever, and as each day goes by I learn more that he never left me….he was given to me the day he passed to the other side, and he has never left me since. His crazy humour lightens my bad days, and his love and support gives me strength always, forever guiding me to my next step.